Let's start the conventional way, shall we?  Updates!

Best Buy rules!!  Oh so much better than Shopko could have ever been.  It's nice to go to work and NOT hate every part of the job.  I've driven home several times from work and NOT been angry.  How crazy is that?  A miracle, I tell you.

Basketball, as far as the church league goes, is done with for the year.  They didn't even have playoffs because they didn't have enough teams.  Bullshit, I tell you.  Sooo, me and the boys, we want our own team.  If they won't let us, we'll find somewhere else where we can have our own team.  It'll be dynamite, to be sure. 

Band practice over Thanksgiving was fantastic.  I miss the brothers.  Especially Dirt, as I don't see him often.   He's too good.  Makes my job of writing that much easier.  The album will hopefully (cross your fingers) be out by Christmas.  It'll cost around $5.  Not too much to hear an exciting up and coming band, right?!?  Didn't think so.

That said, there isn't a lot to report.  Life is, believe it or not, actually going pretty well for me.  I'm a little out of shape because of the lack of basketball, but if that's all I've got to complain about, and for the most part it is, then life is going pretty well, wouldn't you say?  Yep, I would too.

But, it wouldn't be a blog without some form of controversy, would it?

I've been dreaming a lot lately.  Not good dreams.  Dreams I don't want to have.  I don't believe in dreams in the sense that, I don't believe they're a prediction of what is to come.  I believe them to be, basically, overactivity on the part of my brain.  But a certain someone, and damnit you've probably got a guess or two as to who, has been showing up.  Causin' ruckus, if you will.

I said it today to a friend of mine and I'll say it here to anyone who's listening:  nothing affects my mood like lack of sleep and/or dreams.

For some reason, I can't ever quite get rid of a dream.  If I wake up in the morning (or often the afternoon) from a bad dream, one that can really hit close to home, I won't be right for the rest of the day.  This isn't a recent trend.  It's actually gone back as far as 4th grade.  That's the first time I can remember a bad dream affecting the rest of the day.

Of course, good dreams work the same way.  But those are far more rare.  I can wake up from a good dream (and don't be thinking dirty, damnit) and be unstoppable all day long.  I'll be happy regardless of what happens.  Like I said, unfortunately that happens less often.

So the dreams have been kicking my ass.  What can you do though?  I suppose that, in time, everything will work itself out.  And whatever's getting into my brain that's causing these dreams will then cease to exist.  But until that time, I'd like to sleep well.  And waking up in a decent mood would be nice, too...

Song of the Moment:  "Word Up" by KoRn.  Yes, I know it is kinda gay.  Not even good by KoRn standards.  But for some reason, the damn thing sticks with me.  Oh well...

Until Then...Sweet Dreams.

Let's get something straight right off the bat...

I've "turned the corner," so to speak.  To those of you who don't know what that means, it's my little phrase.  My reminder that I'm no longer going to live the old way.  The mental aspects, that is.  I may not look any different.  But what's going on upstairs is a whole new ballgame.  I'll explain later, but not tonight.  Why not tonight, you ask?

Because tonight there's been a small mental lapse.  Buuuut, I forgot update time, didn't I? 

Got a new job!  Fantastical!  Poooooooop on Shopko.  Best Buy is now my new place of employment.  It's already approximately 713 times better than the old place. 

My basketball team...well, I haven't been to the last two games.  Don't like my team much and we're going to try and get our own for next session.  If not, that'll probably be the end for that league.  Nonetheless, the boys and I will be playing in some capacity, so be looking for us.

Beer consumption = down but lack of activity = up.  Gut = expanding.  Not a fan.

That said, I have "turned the corner," as I stated earlier.  But that doesn't mean that my brain is in perfect shape.  Unfortunately, it still needs some work.  Today was one of those days where it was definitely needed.  I slept like hell and had to work.  Work for the first time in awhile.  It was strange.  I was supposed to go out of town, which I'm doing tomorrow instead, and was supposed to hang with my favorite Holly, which I had to cancell and then beg her to do something with me after I found out we weren't going out of town. 

Busy damn day.

I found something else out.  Fantastic news.  Grand news.  A friend of mine is getting married next year.  And what day, you ask?  On my birthday, no less.  Glorious, I dare say.  I couldn't be happier for them.  Then again, knowing what you know about my mindset for the day, what do you think happened?

Shit began creeping into my head.  I've now got two friends getting married next year.  One was married this year.  There's marriage all over the place.  And so I take the proverbial (sp?) look around and find a big fat no one.

I know, I know.  Get over it.  Don't think so much about it.  Blah blah.  But really, I've been pretty content the last couple of weeks.  Really.  Truly.  I'm serious damnit!!  Then again, today was a weak day, as you heard about.  And a weak mind took a solid shot today.  And a solid shot it was.  So what am I going to do about it, you ask?  Tough it out?  Stay strong? 

HELL NO!

I'm going to edwardsville tomorrow to celebrate the 21st of a dear good friend of mine.  College campus, beer, mmm...that's an equation I don't need to spell out.  Call me weak, that's fine.  Just a little companionship for a night would be nice.  I'm not asking to fall in love.  Just a reminder that I am acceptable to the opposite sex (I hope!).  

Wow, really confident statement for a kid who's "turned the corner," right?  Told you, it needs work damnit!

Song of the Moment:  "The Going Rate (My Fix)" by Thornley.  Buy the damn cd already.

Until Then...