Updates...

First off, a fat ass apology for not calling Big Mike back yet.  I'm a whore, what can I say?  As I'm sure you've figured out, I'm not going to be playing at the 4th this July.  Vespa doesn't really want to and to be honest, it's too damn hot.  Damn near mid 90s every day.  Thanks, but no thanks.  I'll call you soon brother.

Job is getting better.  New chick is cool.  I know her from high school.  Getting rid of the old wenches too.  That's always fun.  Hate them.  Well, no.  I really only truly dislike one.  The others are just...well...old.

Playin ball at least once a week.  Having a helluva time pulling in 6, but we make due.  Damnit Mike, come back.  We're playing at night, which is nice because it's not unbearably hot.  I'm starting to get into some kind of groove.  Nothing spectacular yet though.

Soo...To the topic of the day. 

I've been pissed off lately.  Yeah yeah, I'm always pissed off.  While that's true, it's a bit stronger than normal.  I think part of it is the heat.  Pisses me off more than you might imagine.  I hate hot.  I just want to melt and stay as far away from it as I possibly can.

And my car's air conditioning stopped working.  So of course, a 20 minute ride to work makes me want to shoot everyone who won't get the hell out of my way.  Tis a damn good thing I don't own a gun. 

I snapped at a co-worker today.  No good reason.  She's a nice girl.  I was, for lack of a better word, cranky.  And cranky isn't something I usually am.  Irritable, possibly, but not cranky.  I was downright cranky.  Pisses me off that I'm that pissed off.

Regardless, so I'm listening to GnR today.  Slash is the shit.  And on comes a song I've never really liked by them.  Now let me clear the record for a moment.  When I first started listening to GnR, there were several songs I didn't like.  And then it changed.  I began to listen more, love it more, and above all, understand it.

Nowadays, there are maybe 2 or 3 of their songs I still can't get into.  Out of a catalog of over 40 songs.  Well, I'm getting more into one of the ones I don't like.  It's called, as you may have guessed, "My Michelle."

It switches tempos.  It's strange.  It isn't an easy listen.  Not a quick ear grabber, some might say.  But I'll be damned if I wasn't just too lazy to change the song.  I was determined to listen to it and relate to it.  Give it another chance.  And it clicked.

Like a lot of their stuff, especially earlier, it's an angry one.  And maybe it's because I've been angry lately, or maybe the words finally clicked, but I understood.  And that anger became mine.

I don't view this as a bad thing.  When you can identify with a song so deeply that it becomes yours, it can become a release.  Or in this case, a display, of all the anger built up in my head from time to time.

To me, Guns were the perfect band.  Angry, with plenty to say, but occasionally, if you dug deep enough, a soft, touching moment.  And incredible skills.  This is what I strive for.  This is what I shoot for.  And by God, in time, it WILL come...

My Song of the Moment:  Duh.  Damnit.

Until Then...

So, I know it's been awhile.  For the few people that actually read this, I apologize for my hiatus.  Regardless, here I am.

Work is, well, work.  Kinda boring.  Getting a lot of reading done.  Speaks highly for me, right?  Well, there isn't much work to be done.  So I do what I do and that's good enough for me.

Haven't played basketball in so long it's ridiculous.  I want to play.  We had 6 to play last nite, so I was excited.  Then, as my friend Luck said, the "hurricane" hit.  It rained harder than it has in years, probably.  And that wasn't really what was bad.  The wind was insane.  It actually blew over trees.  Uprooted some.  Big mothers, too.  Pretty impressive.  Knocked out power in most of my town and parts of springfield as well.

I'm writing in spurts.  The guitar ability is improving daily, I think.  My left hand is finally starting to catch up.

Anyway, to the importart stuff.  It's been some time since I updated, I know.  Well, the most important thing that has happened was Big Mike came home for a few days.  We played ball.  Went to the rochester graduation.  But more than that, it was just so good to have him home.

I know he's one of the few who actually reads this.  I'll say it here for you man.  You're my brother.  It sucks ass without you here.  From basketball to band to video games.  It's just not right without you here man.  I know you have to be there but that doesn't make it any better.  I hope all is going well for you there.

On the subject of brothers...mine is getting married.  He officially proposed to Kristy this past week.  Beautiful, I know.  I'm excited for the two of them.  It's been a long wait for Kristy, I know.  It'll be wonderful, I'm sure.  Even if it is in a catholic church.  ha!

And on the topic of weddings, there's one I'm supposed to go to in July.  Problem is, I have no date.  The girl I asked over a month ago has not gotten back to me and I haven't been able to get ahold of her.  Yeah, I know, shitty.  I'd say she's avoiding me, but it's just how she is.  My unicorn.  Damnit...

Oh yeah, and I have to r.s.v.p. by...um...Thursday?  Yeah, shit.

So there you have it.  The majority of the shit that's revolving around my world.  There's more to it, I think, but for whatever reason, I feel that I shall not say it just yet.  I'll be back soon, for what that's worth.

My Song of the Moment:  "Brother" by Dark New Day.

Until Then..The Song Says It All...