Alright, so tblog changed everything around on me.  This is a little different and I don't mind tellin ya, it's scary.  I want easy and normal.  This isn't normal.  Different.  Don't think I care for it.  Nope, not at all.  What can you do though?

So, I'm jobless. Ahhhh.  It's been awhile, actually.  Getting too long, to be honest.  I'm kinda tired though, having been spending way too much time out and about and with a certain someone in particular (more on that later) to really pay much attention.  I like staying out all night and sleeping all day.  It's fantastic fun, don't you think?

I don't even recall the last time I posted, so if I repeat something that I've already said, I apologize.  Bear with me.

Got a cell phone.  Last person in America to get one, but I got one.  It's quite bad ass, I don't mind telling you.  New years was ok.  Nothing spectacular.  Drank some, not a ton.  Had a good time with my friend Alix.  Why wouldn't I?  Worst twins ever...

Her birthday party was pretty fantastic.  Except for that whole getting sick part.  Could have done without that.  Lots of alcohol consumed, a solid bit of dancing, some girl on girl action, some action for yours truly, and just an overall good time.  I know I enjoyed it.  Believe she did as well.  For the most part.  What she can remember...ehh...

So...there's a new lass in my world.  She's, well, incredible.  There's not a whole lot else to be said but that.  I could go on...I could list off everything amazing about her, but that would take awhile.  A long, long while.  You don't want to hear that anyway. 

Of course, I have my worries.  There's that whole getting "over the hump" thing that scares me and until I finally break that cycle, I'll always worry a bit.  But for now, things are fun.  A lot of fun, actually.  More fun than I've had in a very long time, with anyone, to be honest.

And as you might expect, with a new muse comes new music.  Ahhh...what more could a man ask for?  Not much, actually.  Not much at all.

Still a little apprehensive.  So happy though.  And damnit, I'm charismatic!  That shall get me through and help me persevere.  A little faith in the Lord never hurt either.  Be good my people. 

My Song of the Moment:  "Wings of a Butterfly" by H.I.M. 

Until Then...

Hope you all had a Merry Christmas.  Mine went better than expected.  A bit sad in spots, as is always the case, but overall it was quite acceptable.  Got some good stuff, finally joined the modern age and got a phone, and spent some decent time with family, friends, and the greatest dog ever (mine!).

New Year's eve...not bad.  Spent in a small group, drinking Killians.  I can't go wrong with Killians now can I?  Superb beer, if there's ever been one.  Had a good time, talked to a few people at midnight, life is good, right?  Yeah...not too bad...

Clearly, there are a few funky, fucked up things going on.  Unfortunately, I'm not entirely at liberty to speak about them now.  Suffice to say, my second place complex is in effect at the moment and I'm quite sure I'd like to smash an empty bottle of Killians over someone's head.  I even have a few people in mind...

For the first time in awhile though, I got really pissed off tonight.  The burning anger that isn't really controllable.  I tried, mind you.  Didn't work so well.

I think, generally speaking, I have too much time on my hands.  Too much time to think, to contemplate what I've done (heheh) and what I haven't done (hmm...).  And that, like anything else, is confusing the shit out of me.

In case you hadn't noticed, my language gets much worse when my brain is overloaded.  And overloaded...I am.

Sonofabitch, I may need to get a new blog/journal thingy.  I feel that too many people read this who know me too well.  And because of that, I can't discuss what I want.  As such, I'm holding back.  Holding back on major events that have taken place in my life, both good and bad.

Piss on it. 

My fucking cd drive is broken.  I can't listen to cds.  Speaking of which, someone ravaged our Best Buy, because they had approximately 7 cds, 12 dvds, and 9 video games there on Sunday.  Why wouldn't I go somewhere else and get what I wanted?  Oh yeah, gift cards.  Hooray.  Maybe circuit shitty will take them...ha!

I'm going nuts for the song of the moment.  "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenfold.  Crazy ass song, my new ringer, and really, the theme song for my world right now.  Now if only I were drugged out like them...

Until Then...